Each baby brings a different type of HOPE

I have been overwhelmed with love, joy and HOPE after the birth of each of my babies. 

Everyone has those feelings, of course. But the timing and way each one changed our world also brought a different type of HOPE to our eyes.

1999 Connor Patrick HaddiganSos

Connor was our first, we weren't young or newly married. So bringing our first baby into the world should not have been completely overwhelming. The enormous overwhelming love after seeing your first baby for the first time is so far beyond words. The HOPEs and dreams we had for him started months before he was born. As he developed his own personality and his own HOPEs, we soon realized that our hopes could only be for his happiness and that became enough.

2007 Logan Edward Haddigan                                                         2007 Riley William Haddigan

When Logan and Riley came into our lives HOPE was kind of the only thing we had. When your babies are born 3 months early after having fetal surgery at 18 weeks and being on bed rest for the remainder of the pregnancy, what else is there?  These two helpless tiny babies showed us just how precious life is and that each day is a gift. We had to leave them everyday in the care of other people, we had to HOPE that they would be okay. When Riley died  days later, our HOPE might have died with him. We were beaten, broken, we were feeling hopeless. Until, two days later, Logan had lifesaving heart surgery. We were again HOPEful. HOPEful for his survival, his future and strength.

After Riley's death, we were so beaten. We had Logan and we loved him so much. We were so thankful that he was strong and healthy and alive. But we were all so devastated by Riley's death that it became hard to really breathe. 

2011 Liam Joseph Haddigan

With Liam's birth HOPE was alive! Liam brought all of us the chance to believe in happiness again. Liam made us HOPEful for the future. Let us believe that everything would be okay and that we would be happy.

Hope is a crazy thing.

Without HOPE I'm not sure where I'd be.

Today's daily post prompt Hope